I used to write for Pitbull Productions' ThugPornBlog, and I recently decided to take some of my blog post from there and copy and paste them here with very little grammatical changes and practically none to the wording, even if my viewpoint and/or lifestyle has changed somewhat. I kept it that way because I still feel for the most part, I was on point with what I said then, and it is still relevant now.
That's why I'm re-posting my ThugPornBlog piece about barebacking here.
Please take heed of the lesson.
Why do some of us bareback when we know the risk, but don't want the consequences?
Looking back on my days of taking that risk, I can give you an idea of what many are looking for, even if they themselves don't realize it.
Me and a friend of mine who is a psychoanalyst, got into a bit of a debate about this. He said that people bareback because of "The Pleasure Principle" - pleasure at any cost. I believe it goes deeper than just ordinary pleasure. When I would take the risk of barebacking, I was searching for pleasure, but a very specific kind of pleasure. The pleasure of intimacy.
I stated before that when ever you have sex with someone you always have a moment where you get in touch with all of them. All of their heart, mind, body, and soul. Whether for a fraction of a second or throughout the entire sex session, you and that other person have a moment where you are completely joined. And that moment is what we are searching for when we have sex. Be the sex in a relationship or numerous 1 night stands. And how much more physically intimate with the body can you get than to bareback. It's totally flesh to flesh, and fluid to fluid. Now, although many realize that connection should be reserved for a life-partner, some of us feel a desperation for the pleasure of that extremely intimate connection and take the risk.
But before you take that risk again, you need to ask yourself:
Is the fear you go through when you walk into a doctor's office or free clinic to get a HIV/STD test worth it?
Is the possibility of hearing the words, "You tested positive for ______" worth that risk?
Is having to tell your friends and family, and most importantly, your significant other worth that risk?
I hope your answers are NO! NO! and NO!
And I am well aware that you are not going to ask yourself those questions when you are in the heat of the moment. That's why you should keep repeating them to yourself now, so that when the moment arises those questions are so embedded in your brain that your asking and answer those questions, and the actions that result from those answers are all subconscious, but safe.
This is what I do now, and I hope you are doing the same, and if not, I hope you start to. Stay well.
Originally posted on ThugPornBlog on December 4, 2007