Thursday, October 1, 2015

Honored Invitation, ...Then THEY Killed The Honor

An invitation to be interviewed is an honor. That's how I've always looked at it. For it says someone has acknowledged your contribution to an art form, society, etc. and that someone, the interviewer, thinks enough of you that the world should know, then want more details about your individual process as to what makes you you.

When you are not the sole interviewee, while not as much info about you will be given, it is still just as great an honor to be asked. But what happens when each and every one of the others interviewed have done things to counter the progress you have demanded, and in some instances incited? It lessens the feeling of honor. And that troubles me.

I was recently interviewed for an article on entitled "Can Porn Stars Have A Race-Based 'Sexual Prerference'?" If you follow me on Facebook or Twitter, you will notice that I have not promoted this article like I have promoted past articles I've been interviewed for. Now, while I wasn't the only one interviewed, that is nowhere near the reason I am not happy with the article to such a degree that I have not promoted it. I have not promoted it because I am disgusted by who the other interviewees are.

In an email, I told of my being displeased with the article. As well as told each person's history with hopes to enlighten the author, and why that history kills the honor of being interviewed for me. It reads as follows:

Hello Tracy,

I've read the article, and to be honest if I knew that my statement was going to be proceeded and overshadowed by such a massive percentage of hypocrisy, two-facedness, and enabling of ignorance via statements from the likes of Chi Chi LaRue, mr. Pam, Steve Cruz, Conner Habib, Diesel Washington, and Zachary Sire, I probably would have never agreed to do it. And if you don't know their history, or are not seeing the big picture, I will explain why. And be forewarned that at times, I do use strong language to stress my point.

If Chi Chi LaRuemr. Pam, and Steve Cruz find this racism to be a problem,...then they should stop being enabling fucktards and stop hiring other racist fucktards. I guess it's another case of "birds of a feather" and "misery loves company". Otherwise, they would hire more open-minded people to present themselves with a more respect-worthy image. So their existence only justifies the negative stigma associated with the porn industry as a whole.

And Chi Chi LaRue has a lot of damn nerve talking! For that asshole's sole use of Black performers has been in that damn "BlackBalled" series where a group of Blacks aggressively gangbang one White boy. AGAIN fueling the stereortype that all Black males want to gangbang a White boy as vengeance for slavery. A stereotype that makes many White gay males who have never been in contact with Blacks fear them. And since some Whites do have "white guilt" and sexualize it, Black males seeing this feel they this is the role they must play if they want to have sex with Whites. And sometimes other Blacks. Hence why I have had so few Black sex partners in my personal life. For too many approach me with this porn-induced uber-aggression.

And Zachary Sire?! He was editor of The Sword enabling this racism to get to this point insulting me and others for taking a stand against it. So is this a change of heart, or a move to rattle people's cage, with no genuine concern for the issue of racism in the industry? After my years of dealing with him, I suspect the latter.

Diesel Washington?! The sellout who at one-time was on the same page as me in addressing this issue, but later back-pedaled because it stopped him from getting work. So he tried to make me do the same. Meanwhile, the image he presents is no different than the one Chi Chi LaRue presents of Blacks. Playing that overcompensating sexual aggressive image I have come to call the "gorilla nigger". An image every studio that hires him has him play, because he does so in real life.

Conner Habib, If the racism is really such a problem, then why is he still in the game. You can't respect someone who claims there's a problem with racism in porn, yet continue doing scenes where every dick they bend over to take, or ass they get an erection to fuck is that of a White male. How can I respect that? Plain and simply, I CAN'T.

And a final note...I do not define as "African-American". Nor do my Black friends, or many of the other Black people I speak to on the matter of how they define their ethnicity. "African-American" is a term used primarily in media that seems out of touch with the fact that your typical Black American does not define by that term. I define as "Black". Thank you.

I do appreciate being interviewed, but you highlighted the worst people possible. You highlighted creature whose existence give no solution to the problem. In fact, they only exasperate it.

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Getting Out The Kinks: I ♥ Daddies

Don't let the title fool you! I do not have a thing for older guys old enough to be my father. While I did grow up with an absentee father, I have not sexualized that void by making myself available only to older guys. I'll address my personal manifestation from my absentee father in another post. Anyway, when I say that I love daddies, I'm talking about hot guys who have had sex with a woman, with the result being him fathering a child.

When I think about how:
  • He put his bare cock inside her,
  • Therefore, her bare flesh rubbed against his dick
  • So then 2 bare natural tools for sex rubbed against each other
  • To the point that they caused him to orgasm and shoot out cum
  • And the sperm in that cum swam inside her body
  • All to create a child
....It is all such a turn-on that it makes me want a shot at it.

Now, before the condom police try getting on my case, if you don't know by now my position on bareback sex, then take note of the pic on the right of this blog about "CHOICE". With that said, I'm man enough to deal with the results that might happen (or may already have happened) as a result of taking this kink all the way. I'm sure many guys feel the same way. Plus, with the recent more public knowledge of Truvada as PrEP, I'm sure many are taking advantage, whether I say to or not.

After all, the real purpose of semen is to be the male's addition to the process of pro-creation. It's just that us sexual nature geeks who happen to be gay have something else about males to enjoy. It may also explain why when gay males have bareback sex, they often refer to the top cumming in the bottom as "breeding". I personally hate that term because while it is the same act, I associate "breeding" more with animals, and not humans. Plus, I love the word "cum". And not just the word "cum", but also all of its properties. Its feel, Its taste. Its smell. I love the smell so much that if a guy cums on me, definitely if we're at my place, I'll sleep with his jizz on me. At his place, it's up to him.

This brings us back to the aforementioned bullet list of sequences in straight sex. Each bullet on that list can have a pronoun or name of a body part replaced to instead refer to anal sex with a gay/bi male, except for the creation of a child. We males can't do that, and are happier for it. That doesn't mean that finding pleasure in the instinct of cum being for pro-creation isn't in us males. For those of us who partake of a man shooting his jizz inside us do so out of loving the thought that like in sex with a woman, his sperm - a part of him is alive and remains inside us after he pulls out. A fact a raw top's ego is boosted by.

Don't think this kink means I'm recanting my stance against recruiting straight guys. I'm not. I know that the only way this kink can come to fruition is for me to be with a father who is an out & proud bisexual, or a guy who came to realize he was gay/bi after becoming a father. With guys who as far as I know who are totally straight, my respect of nature will only allow this kink of mine to live in fantasies.

With all of that said, if you're wondering if I have ever had the opportunity to have bareback sex with someone who was a father by natural means,...not only is the answer YES. But you may have seen me already have hot sex with him....
It's my playmate from "Why It's WE Fuck".

His revelation that he was a father was one he made to me soon after we first hooked-up. Now, in that video, you can clearly see a condom. But a few hook-ups later, he did shoot that fathering load into my ass. With me tightening around his cock during his orgasm to get out every last drop of his cum. But this time, instead of filling a condom with sperm-rich semen....For a time, his ejaculation filled me with a bunch of his "Mini-Me's".

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Sexual White Entitlement - A Tale of 2 Pities

I wrote the above post on Facebook on August 31, 2015. It was after numerous instances over the years of seeing the behavior mentioned in that post perpetrated by White guys. Behavior that is so out of hand that during a trip to the backroom of a bar that very night, I saw 3 instances of sexual White entitlement. With me as the target of 2 of those instances...2 PITIFUL instances. And here they are:

Pity #1
I was at an underwear party observing some backroom action. The guys in the action were hot, and they both seemed to like the buffet of men. For while their main focus was each other, they each allowed others in. One of them however allowed more guys in than the other, and I became one of those "more guys". With that being the case, I stuck around. Actually, I kind of had no choice because part of how I became that "more" was by the more inclusive hottie grabbing hold of my hard dick every now and then.

Suddenly, this White guy comes over from my left, and tries to literally repeatedly bump me out of the way. In response, I solidified my weight. The fact that I weigh only 145 lbs, and he outweighed me by at least 30 lbs., and still wasn't able to move me shows just how strong I am. Since I wasn't so desperate, I could have easily let him please his social ineptitude and desperation, but since I'm all about studying people, I wanted to see how far he would go. He would not let up. I, one of the only 2 Black guys there (and smaller of the 2) possessed the spot he was willing to challenge someone for, while more convenient ones were possessed by other Whites. Never mind the fact that if he got pass me, the guy he was gunning to suck on had his back to him. So once I finally got tired of making him a test dummy for my observations, I let him through. Now, you didn't think this violation of my personal space and prize that is my body would go unpunished, did you? Hence why as soon as he dropped to the floor to suck like a savage on the guy who was occasionally fondling me, I made everyone laugh at him when I said for all to hear while shaking my head, "Desperation ain't cute."

A bit later, I could feel some eyes on me. It turned out being Mr. Desperation. Taking so long to get his thoughts together that I forgot all about him. I didn't even notice when he got up off the floor until he awakened me to his presence saying, "You said desperation ain't cute. Well, neither is cockblocking."

This proves his delusional sense of entitlement. For when is it "cockblocking" when someone stands their ground against you because you're not your target's boyfriend, and you're pushing that someone to get to that target? So I replied, "Me, cockblocking?! Bitch, your socially inept, desperate ass shoved me!"

So to that, his childish retort was, "You know what? Your ass stinks."

Like I said, childish. And not only childish, but also dishonest. For if my ass did stink. How would he know. He was nowhere near it. As I said before, he busted into the area totally from my left. When I responded out loud with this recall of his desperate entry, he shut up. However, from that point on, if looks could kill, someone would have died, but it wouldn't have been me. Because I could care less of his attempt at intimidation, which with his sense of sexual White entitlement only angered him more.

In addition to that, my calling him out in front of all the guys there made it so that even if he wasn't consciously aware, the only ones who would play with him after that were those just as desperate as him, if not more so. The problem is while misery usually loves company, desperate people don't want another desperate person as their 1st choice. They initially want someone unlike themselves - someone confident enough in what they have to offer to show freedom of choice. But my exchange with him snatched that phony mask of self-confidence off his face, then crushed it. And the sadist I become when you overstep your bounds enjoyed every second of the hell my honest words put him in.

Pity #2
Later on in the night, a White couple I saw walk in earlier came to that backroom area. I wasn't sure, but I thought when they walked into the bar that they were checking me out. When they came to the backroom, it was confirmed. For while one was sucking off another guy, the other was sucking on a brown-haired White guy and after seeing me from his side-eye, simultaneously reached into my jockstrap to start sucking on my dick. So he was sucking on me and the White guy. I touched on the other cocksuckee, and he was non-responsive. So I left him alone. Since he obviously didn't want to share (especially with me), he left in a huff. With him gone, once my cocksucker's partner saw he had me, that partner took a break from the cock he was sucking to give my cock a double-teamed suck.

As this progressed, I eventually went down on both of them, and the cocksucking went back and forth between the 3 of us. Then the partner who was joined in last went to the seats across from us to play with guys over there, which was less than 5 feet away, while me and his partner kept playing.

Then the brown-haired White guy came back interrupting us. He was trying to get my playmate to come with him. This is when  the racism driving attitudes of sexual White entitlement make the guilty step on the toes of another White guy. For when dealing with a couple, you have to first acknowledge their dynamic and play rules. I could obviously see that this couple had the rules of being able to play separately, but stay in the same area. So while his partner was playing a few feet away, I knew my playmate wasn't going anywhere. And I'm not such a narcissistic bastard that I felt it was out of obligation to me. I was well aware that it was out of obligation to his partner. His obligation to his partner just happened to work to my advantage...and that White guy's bruised ego.

Too bad that White guy (who came back a number of times) was so self-involved, and full of such a false sense of sexual entitlement that he never realized he was overstepping. Overstepping that even though he did not succeed, Karma will bite him hard in the ass (and maybe his dick) for trying so many times out of sheer undeserving arrogance.

The cause of these instances lie in the pages of gay media rags, gay porn, gay nightlife and the magazines and websites promoting all of them. And it's not just Whites who can be found with such a false sense of their sex appeal and their worth to the ccommunity. Some ligh-complexioned Latinos and tall, dark-skinned, gym-bodied Black males - in short, those epitomized in gay media as the best of each ethnicity, tend to also exhibit these traits. But it's more seen in Whites. Proof of this is seen by how many of the complaints we have about our community can be seen in those sources parading the aforementioned as the best there is. But who runs those sources? Mainly racist White males, who if they claim to like people of color at all are more quick to fetishize them. And who are the other people of color who should be speaking on this issue staying quiet to appease? Their fellow sellout people of color, and...racist White males.

That's why people like me are their worst nightmare. For my responses (in words and actions) like in the aforementioned incidents bring them back to the reality that they know, but don't want to face about themselves...In sex appeal, or wisdom, they are NOT the best there is.

Well, you're welcome racist White bitches. Now, keep your hands off my conquests! Because trying to steal mine only shows that contrary to the racist White gay media hype, you're actually not good enough, therefore not man enough to get your own.